Archive | January, 2016

2nd beta and 1st ultrasound

26 Jan

My 2nd beta on Monday was 1646!  That is more than triple since Friday!  I thought for sure that number was an indication that I was carrying twins.  I was so super excited all day Monday!

I am still in disbelief about this whole thing, and if I wasn’t puking and exhausted, I might not believe I am pregnant at all.  I keep telling myself that this is actually happening, but my heart is still cautious.

I found this due date calculator online that tells you your due date after a Frozen Embryo Transfer, with 5 day blastocysts.  The calculator says that my due date is September 27th.  Now, I know due dates don’t mean very much, but September 27th is Angel’s birthday and seeing that date as my due date really blew me away.

This morning, we had our first ultrasound.  And, well, it was bittersweet.  Two became one.  I am so happy that there is a baby in there, though I can’t help feel sad that we lost one.  The nurse said that sometimes by next week the second one will show up, but she said that they usually see HCG numbers over 1000 at the first draw if it is twins.  So, while she said my numbers are very good, they are not twin numbers.  She said I am 5 weeks 2 days and that my due date is September 25th.

I have another ultrasound next Thursday, February 4th and will continue to see my RE until 8 weeks pregnant.  I only have one more week of Estradiol injections, but seven more weeks of the dreaded PIO.  I am starting to get a little sore, but it is bearable and will be worth it!!

I’ll update again after our next ultrasound.


just “p”

22 Jan


So, in my last post, I mentioned that I was pupo (pregnant until proven otherwise).  Well, today, I would like to modify that.  I am pupo.

You catch that?  I am PREGNANT!

Blood work this morning confirmed that I am pregnant with an hcg level of 543!  That is a great number!  I am overjoyed!

I will have more blood work on Monday to check my level again.  If they are still following the same protocol as my last transfer, once my level reaches 1000 or more, they will schedule my first ultrasound.  I am so anxious to find out how many babies are in there!!

People have been asking how I am feeling.  Well, I feel like CRAP, but it is for the best reason ever!!!  I am so extremely tired.  I went to bed as soon as I got home from work last night.  Arturo thought I was upset about something, I never get in bed at 5:30 pm.  I made myself get up and do my shots and then I went to sleep.  I slept for 12 hours!  Crazy!  I have been really nauseous and have been puking off and on.  I am very emotional, heightened sense of smell (which doesn’t help with the nausea), etc. etc.  So, yeah, all good signs of pregnancy.

I am feeling like it is going to be twins, but we will have to wait and see!

Thanks again to everyone who has been supporting us through prayer and encouragement.  I am so blessed by so many!


10 Jan

In case you didn’t know… PUPO means pregnant until proven otherwise.

Transfer is done! It went great and I am believing that I am pregnant!

Arturo had to work and so my mom came. It was great to have her with me. She was so emotional and grateful to be there.


For the rest of today and the next couple days, I am resting and taking it easy and then back to work.

I have a pregnancy test in a couple weeks. It went fast last time and I am praying that this will too!

I felt so supported today by so many people reaching out to me through Facebook and text with prayers and scriptures and encouragement. I am truly blessed! Thank you all!

This is a devotional that a friend shared with me this morning and it really spoke to me!


it’s happenning!

7 Jan

This week, on Tuesday the 5th, I had another appointment for labs and ultrasound.  Everything was great so I was given the go ahead to start the dreaded Progesterone shots.  Ugh.  I really hate them.  It is not the shot itself that is so bad, but the fact that I get so sore from them.  Two shots in, I am still Ok.  But, a few weeks down the road, I will really be super sore from them.

This morning, Arturo and I went in for a consult with our RE.  We wanted to get his official opinion on whether we should transfer one or two embryos.  I was expecting him to give us a list of pros and cons for both options and then we would have to decide which was best for us.  We have been leaning towards transferring two, but we wanted to make sure it was the best decision medically and not just an emotional decision.

Emotionally, miscarriage was so hard and I can’t help but think how hard another one will be.  If we transfer one, I have a miscarriage, and then I still have one more embryo to transfer, I would have an even harder time being mentally prepared to do another transfer and be pregnant again.

Luckily, as soon as we asked him, he said without hesitation, “Oh two.  Transfer two definitely.”

So, that is the plan.

He said that as long as we are Ok with twins, then there is no reason not to transfer two.  He said that option gives us our best chance at a healthy baby.

He also said I need to change my mindset to not be expecting a miscarriage and that I need to be thinking positively about this transfer.  And, the reason to transfer two is not so that I can only have one more miscarriage, but because it gives us the best chance at a healthy baby.  He is right.  I know that.  I have to change my attitude.

There is a group of people from our church that are organizing prayer and fasting for us.  I feel so incredibly touched by this and it is making me feel so supported to know how many people are praying and fasting for our transfer.  It is definitely helping me to be more calm. We have been so blessed with an amazing support system of family and friends from all over the country, well the world actually.


Now that we have made the decision about how many babies to transfer, I am really realizing that this is happening.  It is real.  I will be pregnant in just a few days!! I am still very nervous, but I am excited too!

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